Let me start off by saying this: volume 1 is very good. The author has a very strong voice and personality that comes through their writing, and if you're a fan of LGBT autobiographies, then this is a good read. But I cannot in any good conscience recommend volume 2. Through no fault of the author, covid-19 essentially cut off whatever momentum they were building up to with Volume 1. As a result, Volume 2 is very much a disjointed mess as the author grasps at straws to find some topic to write about. While there are some highlights, like the author touching on their attempts toreturn to normalcy and a brief flashback to their school days, everything else is just meandering essays on a myriad of mental health adjacent topics.

Of all the colorful characters who appeared in the story in the first volume, like K or her friend from high school, only the General appears again, and only for a brief moment. It honestly felt like reading a completely different series, less about the author's life, and more just a collection of essays with pictures.

This series also has, in my opinion, a very unhealthy obsession with suicide. A two page spread is spent just gathering quotes from authors who've killed themselves, multiple chapters are spent discussing the ways they struggle not to think about doing it themselves and the different methods they could use, they genuinely try to convince the reader to agree with a life philosophy that believes humans should die out, and to top it all off, to choose an essay on the benefits of euthanasia for the mentally ill as the final chapter was... a choice! I can't help but feel like their editor was taking advantage their poor mental health to make them publish such sensationalized topics.

If you have ever struggled with thoughts of taking your own life, seriously do not read this book! This thing needs a content warning! It's not even about gender anymore at a certain point, and the author even alludes to their "male side" fading away in a random mention about halfway through volume 2, and it's just never addressed again after that. The entire premise of the series, discussing their gender identity, is thrown away in favor of them trying to justify why you should be totally okay with suicide.

If you want a raw and real look at an lgbt person struggling with mental health, go read Nagata Kabi. At least her works are self-aware. This book felt like a deeply unwell person screaming into the paper that they're totally fine, as they meticulously plan out their eventual death for everyone to read.