You see, this isn't the kind of manga you enjoy, no, you HATE every single page you're reading, but it feels like a drug you can't stop consuming. Almost no manga go to the levels this one goes. It's depraved, disgusting, absolutely infuriating, but the writing of these people taking bad choice after bad choice, slowly digging their graves, it was incredible. It started off as a kind of anti-incel, who is actually celibate due to his self disgust and how much he auto-imposed these negative values of who he is. This is precisely the beginning of his downfall, and it's all about that. How farcan a person go when they know nothing about relationships? How bad can things go when in a relationship? This man manages to get caught in his depravity by the only person in his vicinity who accepts, and decides to take advantage of this because she's just as messed up as him. This is a manga about a man and a woman in love, but these two are absolute, disgusting pieces of garbage due to their pasts, and how they grew up with terrible ideas on what love might be. I felt empathy for both of them, and I still do.

Hurt people hurt other people, and these two can only perpetuate this cycle because none of the two can do anything else. I love both as characters, and I have met people like the two of these, it's maddening to talk to them, much worse to be in a co-dependant relationship like this. The issue is, both these people can't stop the thrill of being in the positions they're in, and are too cowardly to stop it. So, the only ending they could've gotten was what happened in chapter 35.

However, what makes this manga end so badly, is how rushed chapter 36 was. It felt like the main character could only repeat the same story we just saw. In his delusions, if the fantasy of a horrible relationship is the only thing left, then some don't escape it, rather they become that story. I do believe this was all about the reality of relationships, and how the fantastical hero complex can ruin your life.

That's why the manga hit me so deeply, I hate, and I love seeing people with hero complexes get truly demolished. I felt identified with that aspect, but not with the depravity, which works so well to exaggerate and exasperate the whole situation. It would've been such a good ending if it took at least one more chapter to explore whatever happened afterwards, just a little more. As it stands, it's a rushed, lacklustre chapter that could've been greatly expanded upon, to really nail that ending.

Right now? It's a great, depraved, disgusting, psychological manga that managed to break my routine and get me to catch up in a single day, and read the rest each time it came out. It stressed me out to see the notification of a new one pop-up, as I knew that was the next thing I was reading the instant I could.

8/10. If it makes you read 5 chapters in a row, buckle up, because it's not letting go of you until the end.